BE MINE

he was sitting with *her* when the doorbell next chimed

fearing what happened last time, his heart was racing,

he opened the door to find his ex-girlfriend! she wasn't expected at all, so he was taken pretty far aback

she asked to come in, and he obliged, not wanting to upset her

she didn't even make it through the door before she saw *her* on the couch

• she*, the glint in *her* eyes refracting off the glass in *her* hand, gave a cute little wave to the visitor

in an instant, she knew what had happened, and what *she* was doing there-

images,

images of him,

and *her*,

dancing,

cuddling,

loving,

all flooding into her head, filling the void, crushing her every thought, until all she felt was this unfiltered jealousy at what *she* had

"what on earth made you get her?" she asked, loud, demanding

"why would you spend your money on something like this?"

"i hope you and.. and *her*... are happy together"

"i don't think i can see you again, not after this, and how low you've gone"

"enjoy your life"

stopping her before she could get out the door, he said,

"""

i... she...

for all her flaws, she makes me happy

she gives me something to talk to, and something to hold at night,

and i don't know if i *love* her, but damn, i need her

i don't want to feel alone, and she keeps me from feeling alone

and i know there's more out there for me, out in the world, but i'm afraid to go and look for it

i- i can't be hurt again like, like that, you know what i mean

please don't judge me, everyone just wants to have someone

"""

she... begrudgingly... understood, and left without ever getting to ask him out

---

he didn't sleep that night for a while

he could hear *her* next to him, sleeping happily, as he lie awake

he was reminded of all of the things him and *her* had done together, and how she really did make him feel

"i hope you and.. and *her*... are happy together"

maybe he had what he wanted

finally feeling sleepy, he rested his arm around her, and whispered in her ear,

"i love you"